I Need a BIG God!

This week has been CRAZY! And honestly, I don't have a nice little theme that neatly packages the events of this week together - not even close. However, even as I write this, I realize that it's a positive thing. It reminds me that our God doesn't fit in a tidy little package - thank goodness!! I absolutely need a big God (even if sometimes I refuse to admit that fact).

At the end of last week, the plan was for me to join a church group that I went to orientation with and spend Sunday through Thursday with them in Zirobwe. I was SO excited, but during some of my personal time with God and our devotions, I realized that God wasn't calling me there. I just couldn't feel at peace about it (which is crazy knowing how much I wanted to go), but ultimately, I want to be where God wants me, not where I want to be. So, I ended up staying here in Kampala while one of my sisters filled in for me in Zirobwe, and of course, it was a great week!! God continually reminded me:

"I took you from the ends of the earth,

from its farthest corners I called you.

I said, 'You are my servant';

I have chosen you and have not rejected you.

So do not fear, for I am with you;

do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

Isaiah 41:9-10

Whether it was making Oreo balls late at night, eating and worshiping without power, or going on coffee shop dates, I've realized how blessed I've been by my family here, and I feel like our team grew together a lot this week. We realized that God called each of us here as His servants at this specific place and this specific time for a reason. He purposed it for us, and I've learned so much about unity in the body of Christ just through this week. I've never had the opportunity before to be a part of such a big group of girls, and it's been a blast! 

The girls and our Oreo balls! (Round1)

Jen & I after our coffee date!

The girls making Oreo balls.

At New Brainstorm Primary School

Another part of this week was just plain hard. On Thursday we went to one of the babies' homes. A couple weeks ago I had fed a tiny little girl named Beatrice, and the week after that she had been put in the hospital, so we went to go visit her. This week we learned that Beatrice had passed away from malnutrition. We had guessed her age to be about 2, judging by size. She was 4. Talk about a slap in the face. Even here, that's not something I see every day, but knowing Beatrice, I've realized that it happens every day. Honestly, I'm not sure how to handle it. I wish I could take care of all the hurting people in the world, but I can't. Thankfully, I believe in a big God who can.

One final part about this week before I wrap this up. We got to have a Fun Day with the EAC sponsorship kids on Saturday. We played games, laughed, competed, ate, and all around had a blast! I think the biggest thing that stuck out to me was the overwhelming feeling that there is hope for the kids here! To see those children so happy, healthy, and joyful despite their hard backgrounds was inspiring. Our God is a big and awesome God!

Blessings!